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What can I say? I have been expecting this.. I know I am not well and I am not living it healthy... but it has been an eye opener for me and I don't even know where to start.. 257 sugar boy isn't it the pits that I am a candidate for insulin... have to lose weight at all costs.. have to sacrifice and live a healthier lifestyle...

2015... a new year of ???????

Happy new year.. what has 2015 have to offer from any other years.. the basic answer could be.... another challenging year for me... aside from being the Year of the Sheep which sadly was the common eastern sign of my ex-loves.. hmmm.. what can I remember about 2003???

Twelve years ago... I was deeply in love with a person whom I thought was too good to be true.. it was a very honest relationship which I could say the most honest I've ever had... I was just recuperating from a bad marriage... and the only solace I found was in him; a friend and everything... he taught me to be strong, not to be vulnerable to emotions but rather to learn to love myself more.. He somewhat helped me bring my esteem back.. and I am really glad that he is still part of my FB friends..

Relationship for me had been a struggle right from the start... I always end up losing but still it does not dampen my spirit because I knew I was loved even if there are lots of reasons why it did not work out.

2003 had been a turbulent year for me... it was like looking for something I can't pinpoint exactly... I was at a loss... emotionally that is.. but with real friends and of course my family... and with him around... I know I was not alone in this battle.... but eventually we have to part ways but this time there was closure and we stayed as friends until this time... I am really thankful that he stayed with me during most of the darkest hours in my life...

From then on the realization struck in... there is no need for that certain  person to complete you... You, have to start with completing yourself first.. and that is what I did... the relationships that had followed were just part of dealing and fighting with this struggle but still as I have said... I always lose..but never mind, there are the memories of being loved and cared which counts the most.

earning a little

This is my second post for my blog. I have been surfing different websites for online job opportunities. Let us just say it is entirely for practical reason that I want to earn extra money for a certain purpose and that is to be able to finish my thesis on time. 

My salary as a part time college instructor is not that big. It cannot be by bread and butter as I am paid by the hour and depending on the load given. With this, there is the dire need to make additional income.

One easy way that I found both enjoyable and entertaining as well are the PTC or the paid to click websites, since I am new at this field. One of the websites has been infected with virus and with this I am now at a dilemma whether I can still open my networking sites or my computer needs to be reformatted again for the nth time.

That is the risk I have to take in surfing the net and visiting websites. I don't have the sixth sense to detect if the site is prone to virus or not. But I am not giving up, hopefully one day, I can find the perfect site that can suit my needs and hopefully 100% virus free!!!

what teaching is to me....:)

2011 had been a year full of questions and doubts... I have started to renew my interest in teaching after almost a decade of hibernation... I went back to the academe for several reasons but only one stood out and that is it is in my blood.. I am a restless person by nature.. both in personal and professional relationships...maybe one of my past loves was right in saying.. I was not the settling type... I easily get bored and remained detached from lots of things.. no matter how loquacious I am by nature..I don't easily open up with my emotions not even to my closest friend.!!!..
Teaching gives me a different kind of stimulation not only mentally but more of emotionally.. it makes me more attached with people around me particularly students... it gives me the chance to be  focused not only on what I am teaching but with the real world as it is... With this profession, I know I cannot find enough reasons to let my restless nature sway me to changing career paths...there is an unexplainable gratification which remains to be a puzzle so I have to content myself with the fact that it creates a little permanence in my life.